Before I was a Mom...

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I know that this is kind of old, but it sure fits my day today!

  • Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
  • I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
  • I never thought about immunizations.
  • Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
  • Pooped on.
  • Chewed on.
  • Peed on.
  • I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
  • I slept all night.
  • Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
  • Or give shots.
  • I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
  • I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
  • I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
  • Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
  • I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
  • I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
  • I never knew that I could love someone so much.
  • I never knew I would love being a Mom.
  • Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
  • I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
  • I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
  • I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
  • Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
  • I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
  • I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

Goodbye, Miss Kitty

Monday, April 23, 2007

It's been a sad weekend for me... My old cat, Miss Kitty, has been with me for about eleven years now. She's been sick for a while now, but has chugged right along with life and seemed to feel OK and be happy. Well, on Friday I noticed that she was stumbling a little when she walked. By Saturday she was barely walking at all. Saturday night she came and got in bed with us. By Sunday morning she was just still. She was still breathing, but she didn't move at all. I cuddled her and talked to her for a long time on Sunday, and she finally died Sunday night. I am so sad! I know that my loss seems so trivial compared to what the people in Virginia have gone through this week, but I am still sad.

Miss Kitty has been with me longer than my husband or either of my kids. She lived with me in Monroe, AR; Marianna, AR; Fayetteville, AR; Springdale, AR; Lafayette, LA; Blacksburg, VA and Searcy, AR. She has been through a lot with me, and always seemed to know when I was sad or down. I can remember her coming to curl up around my head more than once when I went to bed and cried from a rough day. She brought me a lot of comfort, especially before David and the kids were around.
I'll sure miss her.....

Thank You, God...

Monday, April 16, 2007
David was not at Virginia Tech today. I would have been a basket case... My heart goes out to everyone in Blacksburg. To have a tragedy like that occur in such a great little town is truly unthinkable. What is wrong with people? One of my very good friends, Amy, is in Blacksburg. Her husband is in school at Virginia Tech. They're all OK, but my heart stopped when I first heard the news. All I could think about was them...

I cannot imagine what it would be like to wonder where your kids were, where your husband is, or whether your friends are OK. I hope God will bring peace to those who have lost loved ones. Things like this shooting just seem senseless to me. I know that God has control, but it is sometimes so hard to turn the steering wheel over to Him.

My thoughts and prayers are with all of you in Blacksburg, and with everyone who is missing a friend, child or spouse tonight. Stay strong...

I'm not brain damaged, after all!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Well, I finally got in to see the neurologist. I had an appointment for May 14th, but they called me Monday afternoon and said, "We have a cancellation, do you want to come tomorrow?" Of course, my answer was YES!

Anyway, mom and I went to Little Rock and I got to see the doc. The symptoms I've been having have been really scary. I've had actual 'holes' in my vision, blinding headaches, blurred vision, confusion, loss of memory, dizziness, all kinds of crazy stuff. She checked me out and diagnosed me with severe migraines. It was such a relief to me to not hear "You're going to die".

I have been so scared! I'm going back on May 30th for an MRI and an MRA, and she's supposed to schedule a CT scan for me, too, just to rule out any tumors, aneurysms, or other disease of the brain. Dr. Corbitt seemed pretty confident that we're just dealing with bad migraines, though.

The doc has had me cut out all caffiene (yawn), all MSG (no Chinese food), all chocolate (I think I might die from that ) and all Nutrasweet (there goes my chewing gum...).

She prescribed seven, yes, SEVEN prescriptions for my headaches. I looked like a drug addict at the pharmacy! The best part is that she also prescribed four weeks of physical therapy, three times a week. The physical therapy is to include deep tissue massage on my neck and shoulders. The best part is that insurance will pay for all of those massages! You gotta love it!
I just hope we can get these headaches to go away. It is impossible for me to be a good mom or a good wife when my head hurts so bad all the time. Thank God for modern medicine!

Why I can't stand teenage girls

Tuesday, April 3, 2007
The past two weeks have reaffirmed my dislike of most teenage girls. There is a group of girls at my sister's school that have just been giving her hell. It's just getting ridiculous. I wish I could take a cork and shove it in each of their mouths so they would shut up and leave her alone.

They're all mad because this guy they all know liked my sis better than he liked one of them. My sister didn't initiate contact with him, and he and the other girl weren't "going out" (modern day version on going steady), but they were "talking".

Maybe my sis shouldn't have talked to him, but you know, one conversation shouldn't cause these little vipers to attack her and call her filthy names. Of course, when they did that, she just said "to heck with it" and started dating him. If you're going to take the blame, why not play the game?

They have really carried it too far. They just won't shut up. Maybe they just need to take a step back and look at themselves. If they did that they might see just how immature and envious they look. I don't know. I think they're all blinded by their princess crowns.

The good thing is that my sis has a strong family, a couple of REALLY good girlfriends, and now, she has the guy, too. You gotta love it.